Wednesday, August 16, 2006
these daes im reali gg hysterical.. sigh.. mayb i dun show it but im screamin inside.. 7-up is asking me to get a lil help fr e witch.. lol.. yes,e witch.. i dunno how to approach her.. but i guess in e end i've to.. n when can i say 'no' to 7-up? i dun haf a choice.. y do i haf to do all these for her? sumtyms i feel im exploited.. but for all i noe, 7-up luvs me dearly.. am i supposed to show gratitude in tis manner? ppl will tink tt im crazy.. no one dares to go to e witch. she's already so scary.. n tis small little gal here's gonna act brave.. haiz.. im freaking out.. n if she ever noes, im gonna get hell fr her.. im tired of playing tis role.. i dun enjoy doin such tings.. probably i've to endure tis for one n a half more yrs.. cant imagine tis will haf to go on.. but it's bcos of hu i am.. n i cant change the fact.. it's all fate.. like it or nt, i've to live wit tis identity..mayb if ***** were my ct or my ***** ****, life wud b much better.. i wudnt need to live in fear.. it solves e problem.. aniting, can jus ask, dun need to hesitite.. n mayb or probably, i can pon for all i want.. great isnt it? but too bad fate wasnt on tis side for me.. i tink ***** is nice la.. n i noe ***** can be trusted.. however, in return i haf a gd ** ****.. ** *** understands us all, n reali help greatly in reducing our work load. as for ***** i dunno la.. but as for ** *** of cos cannot anihow la! sigh, tis is so complicated!
i wonder if im making a mountain out of a mole hill.. but this is how i feel.. i dun even noe if im making sense.. but anyway, i tink life is isnt as bad as wad i tink.. i tink im pretty lousy.. n i've to push myself to handle all these stress n committments.. n i cant give up.. i keep complaining n lamenting all e tym.. i've to stop tt.. if u imagine u're gonna die tml or at any moment.. would u haf regreted tings tt are undone? i still wanna TRAVEL.. sigh.i've to count my blessings.. my godbro is lying in the hosp. currently.n my mum says his condition isnt getting any better n may u noe. sigh, im reali scared la.. i dun wan a sad ending.. i dunno how my mum is gona comfort her by then. ya, my imagination is getting wild these daes.. help..
yup, i feel lyk bloggin regularly.but i cant.. so.. i'll b back onli after a long tym.. sigh, jc seriously suxs.. i wonder how i ended in tis path man.. n promos in 43 days.. gonna b bz.. gonna start my engine fr today onwards.. no excuses.
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